The Rise, The Fall & The Rise

List of Illustrations xi Part One: The Rise Disney's Dream Debased 3 Words Of Wisdom 11 Peanut 16 Scooter Pie 24 Child of a Child Psychiatrist 29 Interview With a Vompire 35 Sunset Blvd 38 Beverly Hills Grandparents 42 The Pink Mansion 50 Cher Was My Babysitter 55 Big Rock Ranch 58 Bomb 62 Chicago (Not) My Kinda Town 65 Tapestry, Boys and Drugs 69 Shrink 73 The Grass is Always Greener 76 Twilight Zone and Halter Tops 80 Barbie Cleaned Up My Barf 82 Backwards and Forwards 87 The King is Dead 90 Karate Kid 93 The Dad Rash 98 The Sword of Damocles 104 Disowned 107 Becoming Brixton 109 My First Proper Job 111 London Calling 114 Mind Control 118 Bennington 122 Banda Dratsing 129 Leave or Die 132 A Date With Fate 141 Meet the Parents 153 Part Two: The Fall Peter Pan's Flight 161 Manchester or Bust 167 1983 174 1984 190 1985-1986 206 1987-1988 231 The Truth 244 The Truth (Part 2) 253 Struggling to Break the Spell 262 Hail 'The Classical' 269 Chaos and Discipline 272 Scraper 276 Kitchen Cricket 279 Head for the Hills 287 Italia '90 295 Donovan and the Beginning of the End 303 Identity Crisis 309 Mouse-Hole 313 Part Three: The Rise Waking Up in the Sun 327 Full Circle 330 Voyage Street 335 Living in a Garage 342 My Magic Bullet, the Thought Process that Changed My Life 350 Earthquake 352 Making Music and Making Peace 357 One Day in Hole 361 1995 366 1996 386 Scabs 393 Notting Hill 400 The Wedding of the Century 403 Pioneers 409 The Seed was Planted 411 STARTing Again 415 Kitchen Bitch 422 Adventures on the Small Screen 428 Fashion Fix 433 There's a Mouse in My House 444 Epilogue Mark E. Smith 449 Music 450 START 453 My Biological Father 454 The Word 455 Acknowledgements 459